November 10, 2020, 10:00am - class 1101 Bikram 90 - Yoga helps with your physical and mental balance. The postures can make you burn a lot of calories and develop your focus. The concept of calming your mind when things seem hectic and crazy can be applied to many of the challenges you experience in your life. I believe this is why so many people gravitate towards yoga.
November 11, 2020, 10:00am - class 1102 Bikram 90 - Nothing is ever free. If you want to improve your health, you have to devote an honest effort into it. What if your entire life depended on yoga and how much heart you put into it? What if you could extend your life by five years with just 90 minutes of yoga every day? Five years not in a wheelchair or in a debilitated state, but five years of being able to keep up with the energy of your loved ones. Would you do it? I definitely would. Just do it.
November 12, 2020, 9:00am - class 1103 Bikram 90 - I may have overworked myself the past couple of days because my spine feels really sore. Hopefully, the pain will subside soon. I spoke about how some people might like to compare their 20 or 30 year old badass selves against me, a 52 year old. When I was in my 20s or 30s, I was a badass, too, and what they see now is what they'll likely be when they're my age, but, chances are, most people will not continue their daily exercise and won't be in the shape I'm in. Chris Fluck said it best when he observed that just 10% of his students will continue their yoga a few years from when they started and just 1% will continue their yoga ten years later. Many people have good intentions when they start yoga, but few really have the motivation to do anything for the long term.
November 19, 2020 - IYSF 2020 Americas Continental Exhibition - For this virtual exhibition, I did push-ups to prepare for my lifts and practiced my routine over and over in my head. 24 postures representing who I am. I didn't practice yoga for a week. I couldn't. I injured my back last Wednesday, more severely than I had thought, and kept it a big secret. I almost forfeited my spot in the exhibition. But one thing kept me going.
Champions never quit.
Most people look at a yoga routine and are quick to judge. They don't know about the hard work that goes behind it. The endless hours of practice and pushing yourself beyond your limits. Some of you might say that's not what yoga is all about and you'd be right... but this is yoga asana. Yoga asana is a sport like gymnastics. For me, this exhibition was my chance to show postures seldom done and the flourishes I do in all of my postures. I lost my balance twice, in Split Arm Balancing Stick and Eagle, but kept going. It was not my best performance, but it was pretty great considering I had a bad back and haven't practiced for a week. I had to rely on my ability to quiet my mind and just do it. As if my whole life depended on my performance tonight. In the past, my pièce de résistance was Eight Angle. Tonight, it was Root Pose. A fiery pain shot through my right calf muscle two poses prior to Root and I almost wasn't able to do Fetal Lotus. A little voice in my head told me not to disappoint the over 200 people watching my performance, so I pushed on and finished my routine with nobody knowing I had a debilitating injury just days before in which I couldn't even turn my torso 30 degrees in one direction! Hour by hour, day by day, I worked myself back into a decent spine twist, so I could perform my routine to the world.
Because champions never quit.
December 13, 2020, 10:00am - class 1104 Bikram 90 - It's been a while since I last practiced, so today I practiced slowly and therapeutically, focusing on alignment moreso than depth. The lesson learned here is yoga can injure you if you push yourself too hard, so try not to advance too quickly! Slow but steady wins the race.
December 15, 2020, 10:00am - class 1105 Bikram 90 - Like Sunday's class, I concentrated more on alignment than depth, but this time I resumed the pace of a typical 90 minute class. There were glimpses of my previous advanced level of practice, but it will take time for it to all come back.
December 17, 2020, 10:00am - class 1106 Bikram 90 - Feeling stronger today, I did my Eagle to Phoenix transition and Extended Bound Side Angle in the second set of Triangle.
December 19, 2020 - USA Yoga Workshop "Judge's Clinic Workshop: Routine Details with Cynthia Wehr" - Cynthia reviewed some common competition poses and explained important aspects and details athletes can work on to improve their scores. The workshop was designed to educate judges on the major components of postures and to serve as a resource to athletes and coaches who want to deepen their understanding of postures onstage. It also serves as a primer for the judge's exam. Wise bits of advice include, "Know the rhythm of your routine, like a song. Know what you're doing 100% in and out." and "In Standing Head to Knee, do a lift up, come down motion. A knee bend is a one point deduction, two feet not in one line is another -1, facing the wrong way is -0.5..." and so on. An obvious, but worthwhile tip worth repeating is "Instead of counting to 5, count to 7 to give yourself some extra cushion." You have to be in complete stillness for five seconds, not continually moving and going deeper into a pose, as in Standing Bow Pulling. In the olden days, there were no deductions for timing! Some poses were a challenge to analyze, but a quick consult with senior judges would culminate in a clarification of the rules. For example, "We judge the pose on its final expression, so in Full Tortoise you can touch your feet to the ground in the setup, but you'll get -1 in the final expression if your feet touch the ground." The rules are constantly evolving to strengthen the level of our sport.
December 20, 2020, 10:00am - class 1107 Bikram 90 - Practicing at home alone, it's always best to have a teacher demonstrate the postures while you practice your class so you can get a sense of what to do. You don't have the luxury of seeing and mimicking others in an in-person class, so your teacher is sometimes your only guide. While I may seem harsh towards those teachers who don't practice while they teach, know that my intentions are always pure and designed to help others achieve their best selves. My words especially hold true in demonstrations, such as Tuladandasna and Standing Separate Leg Stretching. Without someone showing you how it's done, you'll have a tough time achieving good poses on your own.
December 21, 2020, 10:00am - class 1108 Bikram 90 - In Tuladandasana, stretch forward and back in opposite directions as if someone is grabbing your wrists and pulling you forward and someone else is grabbing your ankle of your lifted leg and pulling you back to stretch, lengthen, and straighten your body so that it is parallel to the floor.
December 22, 2020, 10:00am - class 1109 Bikram 90 - I finally did Camel with my hands grabbing my feet after more than a month following my spine injury. That was my amazing feat of the day.
December 24, 2020, 10:00am - class 1110 Bikram 90 - Today's special class included three sets of some postures and advanced variants of other postures. Work on the weaker side of your body to create balance in your body.
December 25, 2020, 10:00am - class 1111 Bikram 90 - Merry Christmas and happy holidays! I spoke about my younger days when I was into bodybuilding. Through my foundation of strength, I was able to develop my flexibility to such an extent that I am more flexible now than when I was ten, twenty, and even thirty years younger. I spoke about how every place you practice your yoga is a blessing and offers unique advantages. I spoke about Camel pose and how the body doesn't have to look like a square. Get the hips above the knees so the thighs are parallel to the wall in front of you. Arms are parallel to the front wall, perpendicular to the floor. Grip the heels well. Lift the chest up high on every inhale. Push your hips forward on every exhale. Drop your head back. Let your head hang loose. Look behind you. Look towards your toes. Your spine will be arching backwards. Get the entire spine involved, not just a single point of flexion. I spoke about how everyone's body is different and how some people may need to modify a posture to suit their body.
December 27, 2020, 10:00am - class 1112 Bikram 90 - It's always good to follow along with a teacher and see the postures being demonstrated, but know your own body and stop when you feel it's a good time to stop in the steps of a posture. In Camel, I talked about the importance of extending the spine fully before grabbing the heels. Take your time stretching and lengthening your spine before you move forward with grabbing your heels. Make sure you're in the proper position first before you move on to the next step in any posture. Develop your body at your own pace, not anyone else's.
December 29, 2020, 10:00am - class 1113 Bikram 90 - You can use Savasana time to prep your spine for upcoming postures. Some teachers may frown upon this practice, but if you've been practicing yoga for a long time, you know what your body needs to get ready for the next posture. Consider Supine Spine Twists or neck twists during this time or just rest and relax. It's your choice.
December 29, 2020, 5:30pm - class 1114 Bikram 90 - We practiced the Bikram Floor Series with extra postures in this afternoon class.
December 30, 2020, 10:00am - class 1115 Bikram 90 - Relax your spine and hips in Standing Separate Leg Stretching. In other words, take a moment to "hang out" and let your body get a feel for being in the posture, then go for depth. You will find you can reach the top of your head further down towards your mat that way.
December 31, 2020, 10:00am - class 1116 Bikram 90 - Try to keep your body weight in your heels throughout Standing Separate Leg Head to Knee. This is easier said than done. What you learn from doing so will also improve how you come out of a posture like Rabbit.
January 1, 2021, 10:00am - class 1117 Bikram 90 - Hatha yoga is hard. It's not meant to be easy. It's an intense form of health and fitness, but most people don't have what it takes to carry on this form of exercise in a sustainable way. Start small - ten minutes at first - and increase the length of your sessions over time until you can complete a 90 minute class.
January 2, 2021 - In a freak accident, I slipped and fell cleaning my bathtub. I landed my full weight on my hand inside the tub, hitting the faucet along the way. My palm swelled up and I had to ice it for several hours. I was in intense pain at one point. The fact that this happened so close to the submission deadline for the USA Yoga Northeast Regional Championship, just two days away, was uncanny. Whenever it seems like I'll get a break, some higher power always throws a curveball at me, but you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way. I had neck and sciatic nerve issues at the Northeast Regional and spine issues at Jedi Fight Club and the IYSF Continental Exhibition. Working through pain seems to be a recurring theme for me. I thought about how easy it would be to just forfeit my chance to compete in the Northeast Regional, but something inside me just said no, you can't forfeit. Some of you might be curious as to what exactly happened the week before the IYSF Continental Exhibition. Here is the Cliffs Notes version:
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-8 Days (November 11, 2020): It was a day like any other. In class, I spoke about how you should perform your best yoga as if your whole life depended on it. Something didn't feel right after the final Deep Stretching Pose. I pulled a bit deeper than normal.
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-7 Days (November 12, 2020): I knew something didn't feel quite right. My Camel felt good and deep, but it was like I was forcing the issue to make the posture better rather than letting the posture come to me.
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-6 Days (November 13, 2020): I skipped today's class to rest my spine. Something felt terribly wrong. Just walking felt very painful. I shuffled forward like an old woman with bad hips. I had to hold onto a handrail or use my hands to grip the walls because I feared falling down the steps in my home. Even lifting my arms was painful and staying up late to deejay my usual weekly online parties probably exacerbated the situation.
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-5 Days (November 14, 2020): The worst thing happened. Today felt like hell. I couldn't get out of bed. My back hurt like hell and it felt like something was on fire. That wasn't good. I couldn't sit up. I had to tilt my body over the side of the bed and use my leg and arm closest to my dresser to push myself up. I still couldn't walk right.
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-4 Days (November 15, 2020): Today felt worse. I skipped my yoga class, opting to let my spine heal. Unfortuately, I woke up several times during the night with the feeling of fire shooting up my spine.
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-3 Days (November 16, 2020): The clock was ticking away. Just three days away and I didn't feel confident I could go through with the exhbition. Thoughts of forfeiting my spot at the exhibition went through my mind over and over again. I spoke to my girlfriend Kay about it.
||"It's getting closer and closer to the exhibition. I don't think I'll be ready. I can't even turn my torso 30 degrees, let alone 180 that Spine Twist requires! I can't do it."
||"Oh sweetie, you've worked so hard to be able to do this."
||"Believe me, not showing up is going to upset me more than anyone else."
||"I know... I know..."
Did you ever get that sinking feeling that the whole world was about to crumble because you worked so hard to achieve something and then the rug gets pulled right out from underneath you? I felt sick. I wanted to cry, but I didn't. All my life, I've beaten great odds to be where I am. The more you know about my personal life, the more you know this to be true. Who knew I would've risen so quickly in the yoga asana world within one year? I felt that this was my year. It's now or never. Next year would be more difficult and the year after that even more so. We cannot be phenomenal physical specimens forever. Age eventually creeps up on all of us. I slept three more hours than usual. I would make my decision the next morning.
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-2 Days (November 17, 2020): It was 9am. I sat with my legs and feet in prayer, eyes closed with the sun warming my body. Time stood still for a moment. I bowed forward and pressed my forehead to the floor, ignoring any pain this action caused. I needed a good prayer, to tell my inner self that I've got this. I said the following prayer to myself. It was the same prayer I said two days before the Northeast Regional.
All that you know, all that you taught me is here in this fractured body.
All that I am is because of you, my teachers, my friends.
All that I do, I do to honor those of you who spent the time to fix me.
To make me better, to make me be the best version of me. This is for you.
This is for you Sandy. This is for you Noelle.
Thank you both.
With that said, I went to work. Every hour, on the hour, I tractioned, I twisted, and I bent for just a minute or two, and then rested. Little by little, hour by hour, I twisted my spine more and more, working through intense pain, shaking off the cobwebs of not practicing for many days, and trying to achieve at least a modicum of the abilities from that awesome physical specimen I once was. Some hours were easier than others. Sometimes I would sit with a messed up looking face and cry to myself in pain, but I knew I had to go on. I conquered cancer, depression, three grueling surgeries, and more! I wasn't about to let an injured spine stop me. I walked through my entire routine in my head after enduring every set of excruciating exercises. I moved postures around and improved my sequence every step of the way. Even though I couldn't physically practice my routine, I mentally practiced it over and over again.
IYSF Continental Exhibition T-1 Days (November 18, 2020): Success! I was able to do a Spine Twist almost 180 degrees. It wasn't perfect, but it was as good as it could be, given my limitations. At 7pm, I practiced my five-minute routine for the first time. It was actually pretty good.
IYSF Continental Exhibition (November 19, 2020): After a few more practice runs of my routine that morning, I demonstrated my routine to the world at 4:40pm EST. As I stated previously, I could've easily forfeited my spot at the exhibition, but I didn't want to because I knew that champions never quit. I did a lot of soul searching in my moment of need and found that the inner strength I was seeking was there all along. Very few people knew the details of what went through my mind the days before the exhibition. Sometimes people take for granted the amazing things they see during the championships. They don't see all the hard work that makes an athlete's asana routine look flawless and easy. When an athlete messes up, these people simply think the athlete wasn't skilled enough or didn't work hard enough. Nothing could be farther from the truth.
January 3, 2021, 10:00am - class 1118 Bikram 90 - Thankfully, the Bikram series doesn't include very many postures that can potentially exacerbate a thumb injury. I spoke about proper foot placement in class today. If you have bunions on your feet, then don't keep your feet together. Instead, swing your heels out about half an inch to an inch to get each heel directly behind the second toe - the toe next to your big toe - to get both feet straight. We get a sense of this straightening of the feet in Awkward, but then there is an assumption that your feet will always be together and straight for the postures after that one and that's not always the case. Later in the evening, I practiced my routine for the first time. Holy shit, Eight Angle was hard on my injured hand. I didn't worry about timing. I just wanted to see if I could do some semblance of the postures.
January 4, 2021 - I recorded and reviewed two attempts at my routine this morning. It was the second and third time I practiced my routine. I thought my freak accident on Saturday would've prevented me from performing a lift posture, but, thankfully, it didn't. I practiced some warm-up exercises before the next recording and recorded three more attempts. I scrutinized each one and concluded that the final version was the best. Later that night, I helped my friend Toni record her video for the competition. I gave her a number of pointers to help make her routine better. The most important coaching tip I can give anyone is to reduce the amount of fidgeting before, during, and after postures. Many of us don't realize just how much we subconsciously move when we're told to stand still.
January 6, 2021 - Alas, the USA Yoga Northeast Regional Championship wasn't meant to be... just yet. The event was cancelled and my registration fee was refunded for both Toni and myself. It wasn't a well-promoted event, having a cursory mention on the USA Yoga web site, so there probably weren't enough contestants to make the competition worthwhile.
January 8, 2021, 10:00am - class 1119 Bikram 90 - Establish a strong foundation before you charge forward and bring your body down in Standing Bow. Keep that strong foundation as you come out of the posture. Firmly root your foot of the standng leg into the ground. Try not to bend the knee. Engage all the muscles in your standing leg. If you proceed without establishing a strong foundation, you will find it a lot more difficult to regain your balance if you happen to fall out. A posture should be strong at all points: beginning, middle, and end.
January 9, 2021 - USA Yoga Workshop "Judge's Clinic Workshop: Routine Details with Ky Ha" - Ky gave us insights on how he judges athletes' postures and explained important aspects and details the athletes could work on to improve their scores. The workshop is designed to educate judges on the major components of postures and to serve as a resource to athletes and coaches who want to deepen their understanding of postures on stage. It also serves as a primer for the judge's exam. Wise bits of advice include, "Be consistent in your judging. The most you can deduct from a charactertistic is -2. Minor deductions are -0.5 and there are minimum points to deduct for certain characterstics. Every wiggle of your foot is -0.5, so three foot wiggles is -1.5. As a competitor, your job is to hide imperfections. As a judge, your job is to spot imperfections. As a competitor, you should always put your best foot forward. Don't show your physical flaws, such as a longer leg, otherwise judges may deduct points off for misalignment of hips even though that's your body. We better ourselves as competitors and judges are like teachers, giving us feedback on our postures. When there are five judges, the highest and lowest scores are removed and the middle three are averaged. Sometimes judging can be subjective, but the key is to be consistent in your judging across a group of contestants. It's always better to do a standard posture well than a difficult posture poorly; execution scores are determined by what the competitor scores versus how high she could have scored. Scores don't define you as a competitor, but judges have to score you for consistency. Judges stress just as much as competitors onstage." It now makes sense why I'm usually ranked at the top when it comes to execution. It's because I do my postures better than others who try to do harder postures not so well. A higher execution score comes in handy when there are ties.
January 10, 2021 - USA Yoga Judge's Exam - The notion of an exam causes more anxiety than it should. After careful examination of what my goals are, I decided to take the exam because it was one of the requirements for being a coach or judge in the organization. Various descriptions of the exam stated that it would take either 45 minutes or two hours (120 minutes) to complete. Which was it? There is big difference between 45 minutes and two hours! A further point of confusion was the exam was available from 10am to 10pm today. I stayed up until 3:30am last night reading and reviewing the 121 pages of USA Yoga Competition Rules and Regulations and Posture Guidelines. When I took the exam, I discovered it wasn't nearly as difficult as I had thought, perhaps because I was well-prepared for it and also perhaps because I knew a lot of the rules and regulations already. The exam had a maximum time limit of two hours and I completed its 60 questions in less than an hour. About three-quarters of the way into the exam, the web site presenting the exam slowed to a crawl. Moving to the next page of the exam required a 30 second or more wait time. Up until that point, I was quickly breezing through its pages. Before I knew it, I finished the exam and thought to myself it was one of the easiest exams I've ever taken. Why did I get so worked up over it? The final page said that my exam would be reviewed by a USA Yoga head judge and the results would be available within a week.
January 11, 2021, 10:00am - class 1120 Bikram 90 - There should always be continuous engagement of the muscles from the beginning to the end of a posture. Go through a posture slowly to receive its full benefits. Don't jerk your body into a posture or come out quickly. Clear your mind of everything but the posture you are working on.
Jean Agress, one of the head judges of USA Yoga, wrote me today to review my exam and finalize the process for being a coach. I spoke to her over Zoom. "I remember you!" she said with a big smile. "I've seen you many times over the years. You are very good!" We reviewed the four questions I got wrong and discovered that it was an interpretation issue. "Don't worry, everyone else got those wrong, too," Jean said. I offered to help her rewrite those exam questions and other documentation that might be unclear to exam takers. She was immediately impressed when she learned of my book 1234 Yoga and said it would be great if I could help. She asked me if I wanted to be a coach or a judge. I asked her if being a judge would prevent me from competing and she said yes, so I said I wanted to be a coach, since coaches are still allowed to compete. "We would be happy to add you to the coaches list," Jean said. "We need someone to coach the 50+ competitors as there are a lot more 50+ competitors now. We're happy to have you join our organization." With that said, I'm now an official USA Yoga coach.
January 13, 2021 - Virtual JFC Homework Week with Esak Garcia - I signed up for a day pass for this week's Virtual JFC Homework Week to learn Esak's training techniques to assist us in developing our strength, balance, and flexibility in Leg Over Head postures, such as Compass and Goodbye. We practiced hip openers, including variations of Pigeon, Lizard, Wind Removing, and Side Angle. I can't do leg splits yet, so many of the advanced techniques were not yet accessible to me, but I felt they were achievable over time. The amazing thing is with the stuff I practiced in this one class, I was able to get my leg over my head much more easily than in recent attempts. Being able to get my leg over my head opens up many more possibilities for my future championship routines.
I'll be the first to admit I gained a few pounds resting from my spinal injury, but the most recent random text message to my cell phone promoting a miracle drug that will burn off 45 pounds easily was amusing. I responded, "If I lost 45 pounds, I'd be 90 pounds!" Another text promotion a few days later ensured that I would lose over 35 pounds in less than 17 days. I responded, "The first ad was for losing 45 pounds. I guess if I use both of your products, I would weigh 55 pounds and then a scarecrow would find me attractive!" I like playing with these silly product companies.
January 14, 2021, 10:00am - class 1121 Bikram 90 - Use the same grip for the single leg as the double leg in Wind Removing and you will find you can go deeper into the posture.
January 17, 2020, 11:00am - class 1122 Intermediate Series - After more than two months, it feels good to be teaching the Intermediate Series again. I forgot about how therapeutic some of the intermediate postures are and spoke about the difference between PT and yoga. The goal of PT is to return an injured patient to a fully functioning, pain-free state. You achieve this with very easy exercises that target specific muscles and joints. The goal of yoga is to help a person achieve maximum strength, balance, and flexibility for the body they have now. PT is like a baby form of yoga. Many doctors prescribe yoga to their patients whom they feel are healthy enough to do it. Some people poo poo yoga because they feel that many of the postures are not accessible to them. Rather than denigrate something they can't do or understand, they should try to graduate from their simple PT exercises to something more challenging and range expanding.
For years, I've interacted with people who brought out the worst in me. Their selfishness and narcissism would clash with my inner peace and ideals and their behavior would encourage similar behavior in me. I would be a narcissist-enabler to the narcissist, listening and nodding to every stupid thing that spews out of their mouths. Conversations with narcissists would end up being one-sided where they would do most of the talking and I was just listening. They believed I was agreeing with them just because I was listening or nodding. Anything I would say, any recent, happy achievement I told them about, would be turned into an opportunity for them to boast about how great they are... even if they're not that great. I've discovered that the best defense against such narcissists is to simply ignore them. They will want to talk to you again because they seek your narcissist-enabling behavior, but the best thing to do is simply limit your exposure to them and those people who bring out the worst in you. Why? Because a good person is inherently a good person. A good person tells others about their achievements, but doesn't turn someone's achievements around into an opportunity for them to tell you about how great they were ten or twenty years ago or what they could possibly do, but never have. Feeding the narcissist energy simply gives them more power to feel better about themselves and to feel superior to others, including you. We all have friends we know who are a bit narcissistic, however, do these friends also try to turn what you say into some achievement of theirs that are not really related? Do they try to justify their narcissistic behavior in some way by saying you're exactly like them just because they saw you nodding to what they said in the past? Do they try to say things that make you question your own feelings, instincts, or sanity? Do they try to trivialize what you do? Don't let these people steal your peace. You're better than that. You know you're better than that. We grow, we mature, and we change over time. Everyone changes over time, except for the narcissists who must cling onto the few achievements they have and their need to surround themselves with narcissist-enablers. There is hope for the narcissist, but they must be willing to acknowledge their behavior and seek therapy.
Although I've stopped broadcasting my yoga classes for a few weeks, I've continued working on my yoga poses in private. The demands of my workplace take precedence, but I try to get my training in as much as possible during my breaks to prepare for the next regional championship. Can someone do a class in a piecemeal way and still reap all the benefits of the class? I believe that doing what you can is better than doing nothing at all and I also believe that doing the postures the way I do them, with maximum intensity, will give me the benefits I'm seeking anyway. Some postures, such as Half Moon and Spine Twist, I do every day more than twice. Others, such as Standing Head to Knee and Toe Stand, I could skip without losing any strength, balance, or flexibility in my competition routine. I would be so bold as to say that some 26+2 postures are actually detrimental to my overall well-being, but we all do them because we're told to in class. I'm from the school of thought that says if you don't want to do a posture as described, for whatever reason, just do something similar to fill in the time. Do Phoenix instead of Eagle or Split Arms Balancing Stick instead of Balancing Stick or Extended Side Angle instead of Triangle. Do what your body needs to do. Listen to your body first, the teacher's dialog second.
February 7, 2021, 10:00am - class 1123 Bikram 90 - Haven't practiced a full yoga class in a while? You might need to shake off the cobwebs. Remember, it's never too late to start again. I push my students hard because I want them to succeed, but remember that you are your own best teacher. Take all the good things you've learned from all of your teachers and make the class your own.
February 9, 2021, 10:00am - class 1124 Bikram 90 - Continuing to work through injury seems to be par for the course in my life. I need to remember not to be too overzealous in my training, otherwise I'll risk further injury. For whatever reason, I could not broadcast my video in landscape mode today on my iPhone, so I had to do it in portrait mode. It worked out well anyway as you can see more of me in portrait mode.
February 10, 2021, 10:00am - class 1125 Bikram 90 - Respect your injuries and work with your body, not against it when practicing a class. Change comes in small, tiny increments. Work steadily towards your goals. You'll know when you're ready to do more. Never bite off more than you can chew.
February 11, 2021, 10:00am - class 1126 Bikram 90 - When practicing a difficult posture, eventually "I think I can" becomes "I know I can." That's when real change happens.
February 12, 2021, 10:00am - class 1127 Bikram 90 - I had to break up my class into two parts so I could take care of some scheduled appointments. I added Crow, Crane, and Baby Crow to the Standing Series class. How still should you be in standing postures, such as Standing Head to Knee and Standing Bow? You should be so still during the 60 seconds you are in them that someone watching you should mistakenly believe their network connection froze for that length of time. Make your yoga look effortless.
February 16, 2021, 10:00am - class 1128 Bikram 90 - Bikram Yoga classes are excellent for spine development. In today's class, I discuss the look of the spine as it develops over time. The spine very much resembles a coiled snake after a few month's of daily practice.
February 23, 2021, 10:00am - class 1129 Bikram 90 - Don't worry so much about seeing all five toes of your hooked foot behind your calf muscle in Eagle. If you have a big leg, you probably won't see your toes. Worry more about getting a secure hook behind the foot with the toes pointing downward. When you're in an inversion posture, don't hold your breath because bad things can happen. Keep breathing! We did two sets of Spine Twist, the Bikram variant and my variant.
February 25, 2021, 10:00am - class 1130 Bikram 90 - If the dialog were stripped from a Bikram class, you can complete it in as little as 60 minutes. Following the dialog maintains the pace of the class and it is useful for students who are used to holding a posture for the duration of the dialog.
February 26, 2021, 10:30am - class 1131 Intermediate Series - We practiced Root Lock (Mulabandhasana) as a bonus in class today. It's a posture I'm practicing for the championship, but is useful for those who want to develop their ankle flexibility. We also practiced Shoulderstand Lotus.
February 28, 2021, 10:00am - class 1132 Bikram 90 - Don't "charge" forward in Standing Bow. Charging implies forcefully thrusting yourself onward like a cavalry stampede, guns blazing and horses rushing forward. Instead, tilt your body forward with an intense stretch forward and back, keeping your exended arm and thigh of the kicking leg in line with your torso. Think about a drinking bird toy. Your arm and your thigh should be in one straight line with your torso, balancing on a single standing leg as you tilt forward. Keep your standing leg strong, engaging all the muscles in your leg. Keep your foot planted firmly into the ground, pressing your big toe down. Keep your gaze looking ahead. Do not lose your focus. Keep stretching your arm and leg in opposite directions as you tilt your body down, keep stretching while you're in the posture, and keep stretching when you came out of the posture. Do not lose your intensity at any point. Say to yourself, "I want to be the best that I can be." If you fall, learn how to fall gracefully. Mastering that will come in time.
March 2, 2021, 10:00am - class 1133 Bikram 90 - Remember to breathe before a posture, during a posture, amd after a posture. Breathe before a posture to calm your mind. Breathe during a posture to calm your mind. Breathe after a posture to calm your mind. Don't hold your breath while you're in a posture, otherwise serious problems can happen. As a beginner, you may find yourself losing your balance in postures that require standing on a single leg. Through continued practice over time, you will gain experience in learning how to use your powerful legs to cushion your fall once you lose that balance.
March 3, 2021, 11:00am - class 1134 with Justin Riley - 136.5 today. It's been almost a year since I stepped foot in my home base yoga studio, Bikram Yoga Philadelphia. The heat felt suffocating as it always does, but I persevered. Despite Justin's encouraging words, I knew I had some work to do in order to be in the competition shape that I once was. I was physically and mentally exhausted after class and needed an hour in Barnes & Noble to decompress.
March 4, 2021, 10:00am - class 1135 Bikram 90 - The Sitting Rising Test, invented by Dr. Claudio Gil Araujo, is a way to predict the longevity of a person. I've described the test in my book and talk about it from time to time in my online classes. You will always see me doing this at the very end of class. The best way to score higher in this test is to practice yoga. Today, I missed an entire posture sequence during class, but made up for it by practicing it towards the end. I think you will find my class flows quite smoothly even with this rearrangement in sequence. Vinyasa teachers play with their sequences all the time. Nothing should ever be etched in stone. In case you don't know, my 500-hour certification is in therapeutic yoga and the yoga we studied was, in fact, Vinyasa Flow based on Hatha Yoga.
March 5, 2021, 11:00am - class 1136 with Chris Fluck - I felt a bit more acclimated to the heat today. Justin and Chris both liked my high-arching backbends. I believe my grueling Jedi Fight Club training really helped develop my thoracic spine. I haven't been backbending as deeply in my lumbar spine, instead focusing on my thoracic as the competition nears. "Nice, Clare, for always keeping your quads engaged," Chris commented on my Janushirasana floor pose. I practiced Archer and Root Lock after class.
March 6, 2021 - USA Yoga Workshop "Judge's Clinic Workshop: Advanced Postures and Timing Details with Ky Ha" - In this two-hour workshop, we studied videos of past competitors and Ky gave us insights on the minute details judges look at in competition. "There are two departments for checks and balances," Ky said, "one for timing and one for technical details." Timing begins when you achieve your maximum expression. If you extend further, the timer is reset. You can lose points for so many different things. Some people don't realize how difficult it is to perform a posture to perfection every step of the way from going into the posture to coming out of it. A "fall" is not a fall to the ground, but an accidental coming out of a posture. It could sometimes be a simple movement of the leg that the untrained eye could not see. "We don't look at and compare competitors from year to year. We only care about what's happening this year. Some people will complain that they did better this year, but scored less than last year. My response is, 'Well, you didn't have as experienced a panel of judges looking at you. We will call you on your bullshit.' We see that in some top ten competitors every year. We don't care that there's some physical reason why someone can't do a posture. We only care that he's not doing it," Ky shared in his no-nonsense way. It was interesting to see videos of competitors I knew being used for our studies. The best way to understand postures is to practice them. We may try to cheat our way into a posture, because we want to see success, but that's why we need teachers to correct what we are doing wrong. Now I see why having a coach is valuable to a competitor. You definitely need someone to explain all the intricacies of the competition rather than just diving right in.
March 6, 2021, 4:00pm - class 1137 with Joel Pier - Both morning classes were full, so my walk to the studio to see if I could be lucky enough to be picked off the waitlist wasn't successful. The classes were packed with teacher trainees from the studio's teacher training program. There were many spots available in the afternoon class, so I reserved mine. It, too, was packed with many teacher trainees. I haven't done a Saturday class ever since I started DJing on Friday nights. It was good to come out of the studio in the evening and experience the vibrant city nightlife. I definitely feel stronger in the morning, so I didn't go as deep in today's class. My first sets were mostly strict alignment exercises and my second sets I would turn it on. I think that's better than going all out in the first set and being winded in the second set. "What is the biggest non-negotiable in Paschiomotthanasana?" Joel asked the class. "Heels up off the floor as you pull," he responded. The Ghosh Yoga folks actually don't tell you to lift your heels up off the floor, but we all love Joel, so we'll do what he says.
March 9, 2021, 10:30am - class 1138 Intermediate Series - Today's class was a more free-form version of my Intermediate Series 55+2 class. I added more Vinyasa poses on it, including Cat/Cow, Fire Hydrant, twists, and more.
March 10, 2021, 11:00am - class 1139 with Vulgar Yogi (Toni Rosenwald) - "Some teachers omit words like 'hurt like hell,' but that just takes away from the intensity of the class," Vulgar Yogi said. Yes, she "killed" all of us, so it was a good class. Toni demonstrated some of the postures with us, just as I would do. At times, I felt as if I were looking at a younger version of myself. Her ferocious intensity and enthusiasm on and off the mat precede her. I liked my slower Huckleberry Finn pace, but, sadly, the 60-minutes allotted to our class don't really allow for my slower moving meditation to shine. Unfortunately, the 11:00am classes are all 60 minutes long. I'm grateful I can get some exposure to the heat; I just wish it were for 90 minutes. My bodyfat is back down to 10%. Now I have to align my bodyweight with my bodyfat over the next month.
March 11, 2021, 10:00am - class 1140 Bikram 90 - Yoga is one of the best physical fitness methods to alleviate poor circulation. The 26+2 series is mostly lower body work, but working out the lower half of your body has a nice rippling effect from bottom to top through your spine. There are two flows in the 26+2 class. One is the continuous flow between the first and second set of Eagle. The second is the transition between Tree and Toe Stand. I spoke about slowing down your practice and moving through class slowly and methodically.
March 11, 2021 - USA Yoga Workshop "Champions Series: Yoga Sports Drill with Dev Kapil" - In this 90-minute class, world champion and Master Yograttan Dev Kapil led us through yoga drills that focus on the execution of advanced postures. These drills help yogis build muscle memory and experience a deeper execution and safe expression of common stage postures. It was a heavily attended workshop with 46 participants. I even saw a couple of my Jedi Fight Club colleagues in class.
March 15, 2021, 11:00am - class 1141 with Chris Fluck - Today was the first time, since autumn, that I actually saw my abdominal muscles. In Awkward, on the exhale, my stomach looked chiseled. In SH2K (Standing Head to Knee), I touched my forehead to my knee, but fell out in the last moment. Chris praised me for a graceful fallout. Those of you who've been taking my online classes have learned how to fall out gracefully. I touched my forehead to the floor in Standing Separate Leg Stretching. Today was also the first day since I restarted yoga in the hot room that I didn't feel exhausted after class.
March 16, 2021, 10:00am - class 1142 Bikram 90 - To reiterate how to do a graceful fallout in SH2K, if you feel you're losing your balance and have no hope of regaining your balance in the posture, quickly plant the foot of the lifted leg down to the outside of the other foot and use the spring action of your bent knees to cushion the fall. If you want to make Tree more challenging, stretch your arms up for Tall Tree, open your arms out for Palm Tree, bring your arms and hands together at chest level, and float your hands back to heart center. Repeat the flow.
March 19, 2021, 11:00am - class 1143 with Chris Fluck - 136.3 today. I got my second COVID vaccine on Wednesday and took all of Wednesday and Thursday to rest from the negative effects of the vaccine. I repeated my performance in SH2K and again fell out gracefully. I finally managed to get my leg straight on the left side. That was my breakthrough for the day. Chris liked what I was doing in Triangle. After class, I practiced Archer.
March 22, 2021, 11:00am - class 1144 with Chris Fluck - 135.3 today. Heat allows the muscles to relax and stretch more easily. The intense stretching I do in preparation for the championship necessitates the use of heat. I'm now understanding the heat component more and why it really doesn't make sense to do a Bikram class without heat. Chris spoke about hands-on adjustments, including the use of someone else's weight added to your own. "Don't ever let anybody step on your back, because you lose all control of your body's function," he advised. My feeling is a good teacher will know when you are in a stable, locked position before he or she proceeds to apply his or her own weight to yours. At least I hope so!
March 23, 2021, 11:00am - class 1145 with Justin Riley - 135.1 today. "Good job on the shoulders, Clare," Justin said to me during Cobra. After class, I said to Justin, "Thanks for class, Justin. Please critique me all you want. I'm going for top 5 this year. Last year, I was number 6 in the world, senior women's division." "That's awesome!" Justin said.
March 24, 2021, 11:00am - class 1146 with Vulgar Yogi (Toni Rosenwald) - 134.6 today. It felt pretty hot in the studio today. Toni practiced SH2K right next to me. I always like to practice my second set on the hardwood to similate a competition environment. We held the Standing postures for a bit longer than usual, so we had to skip a superset of Half-Tortoise, Camel, and Rabbit to fit the class in an hour. "Good correction with the shoulders on Spine Twist. Just giving you some of your own medicine," Toni said to me after class. "That's cool," I said, smiling. I always appreciate corrections. I discovered that Robyn, one of my inspirations in the yoga competition world, wasn't competing this year. I was sad to hear that because she always has a good routine.
March 30, 2021, 11:00am - class 1147 with Justin Riley - 136.6 today. It was ungodly hot in the studio today. After class, I felt faint and not able to hear out of my left ear... and no wonder... the thermostat read 138 degrees! I had trouble standing up in the shower, so I squatted while taking my shower. I didn't have enough strength to stand up. Thayne was in class and gracious enough to get me a coconut water to restore some electrolytes. I was in bad shape after class. I want you all to realize the dangers of a hot yoga class. Even a seasoned practitioner can fall to his or her knees from dehydration and, even worse, end up in the emergency room like I have. This isn't and shouldn't be a common occurrence, but when you're someone like me who likes to push herself to the limit every time she practices, bad things can happen. It probably didn't help that I had a cocktail the night before.
March 31, 2021, 11:00am - class 1148 with Vulgar Yogi (Toni Rosenwald) - 134.5 today. The heat was more manageable at 123. Still too hot, in my opinion, and the only thing you can do is adjust. Push yourself when you can; hold back if you feel dizzy or faint. It was a good class today. Toni corrected me on my shoulders in Cobra. They were curling in from the pain in my right shoulder. "Beautiful Bow, Clare!" she said. I kicked the fuck out of my legs. Rather than drink water throughout class, I drizzled water on my head. That kept my body temperature in check and woke me up at several points.
April 1, 2021, 11:00am - class 1149 with Dan Murphy - 134.3 today. Finally, a class with reasonable heat at 106! Dan's teaching style has certainly improved since I last saw him last year. He praises people a lot, which is good, and his class still has a relaxed vibe versus the tough style of other Bikram instructors.
April 2, 2021, 11:00am - class 1150 with Dan Murphy - 134.7 today. After taking several 60-minute classes, I've come to the conclusion that there really isn't a 60-minute class as everyone's class always ends late. Some end 3, 5, even 10 minutes beyond the alloted time. There is simply no way you can end in 60-minutes if you provide full instruction. I took a 60-minute class with Gerardo Candolino once. He ended on time because there was very little instruction. "Just hit the pose and take it home, all the way home," he would say during several postures. He would practice with us to provide examples of what each pose should look like. I feel a 60-minute class should be more like that.
Several members of my yoga (and aikido) community recommended the Tibet Healing Spa for a deep tissue massage. This is not the gentle, relaxing massage you get at the traditional massage centers where you are expected to fall asleep and enjoy a nice meditative experience. Absolutely not. This is a brutal road to Hell and back as all your muscle knots are kneaded and undone by petite, super-strong people who will use every trick in the book to loosen all the tightness in your neck, back, and joints. There are even hot stones thrown in at the end of the one-hour massage for a soothing, deep relaxation effect. I had a deep tissue massage done in 2014 and remembered it being a painful experience. This one was at least twice as painful, but really served me well today.
April 6, 2021, 11:00am - class 1151 with Justin Riley - 134.7 today. Justin liked how long I stretched my legs in Locust. "It's not how high you go; it's how long you can stretch your legs in Locust," Justin said. Considering all that I ate this past weekend, I'm surprised I didn't weigh more today. I was still feeling the effects of yesterday's deep tissue massage. I felt soreness on top of soeness. I've agreed to help out the studio I practice at in exchange for free classes. Apparently, I'm the only former teacher who still takes classes at my studio. It's interesting how students and teachers just stop doing Bikram yoga one day, almost as if it was just a fad or quick money-making scheme to them, whereas I'm still doing it purely because I love it and believe in it.
April 7, 2021, 11:00am - class 1152 with Vulgar Yogi (Toni Rosenwald) - 134.3 today. Battling through shoulder blade and rotator cuff pain, I sweated my ass off in greater than 116 degree heat working through the postures. Toni did the second set of Standing Bow with us. "Try to get your back straight," Toni said to the class in Standing Separate Leg Stretching."Do what Clare is doing. Lift your head up to get your back straighter." I remember saying that in my online classes.
April 8, 2021, 11:00am - class 1153 with Dan Murphy - 135.0 today. Ack, 120 degrees in class! It really didn't have to be this hot today. Every day I practice Rabbit, Shoulderstand Lotus, Spine Twst, Archer, and Root. At some point, I will need to add Eight Angle into the mix. Will I be good enough for the championship? Only time will tell.
April 13, 2021, 11:00am - class 1154 with Justin Riley - 134.3 today. It was 129 degrees today, so I practiced slowly and cautiously. I was dripping sweat in buckets. I ran out of energy when I got to Tree and skipped my first set of Camel.
April 14, 2021, 11:00am - class 1155 with Vulgar Yogi (Toni Rosenwald) - 133.6 today. There were just three students today: Justin, myself, and Stan. "These are the teachers who practice what they preach, going to class every day," Toni said, admiringly. She pushed me into doing a full Standing Bow in both sets. I sweated my ass off today, but did every posture. It's been rough losing these last few pounds to get myself in championship shape.
April 15, 2021, 11:00am - class 1156 with Dan Murphy - 134.2 today. The temperature was a little better today aat 116, but still too high. I persevered and made sure I didn't go down. It took splashes of water on my self to wake me up because I felt like I was about to phase out a couple of times during class. "There is no tomorrow..." I said to myself. "This is for the championship..." I did Phoenix during Eagle. I did a hand mudra flourish in Standing Bow. I did an arm flourish in Tree. I did a no-hands-touching-the-floor Toe Stand. I did hands in a back clasp in Standing Separate Head Forehead to Knee and Cobra. I did Lotus legs in Wing Removing. I'm in better shape today than when I recorded my qualifier video in January. Five more days to record my qualifier video.
April 18, 2021, 9:00am - class 1157 Bikram 90 - Rabbit, Shoulderstand Lotus, Spine Twist, Archer, Eight Angle, and Root. I practiced this routine in my head again and again, to the point where I was second guessing myself. I haven't practiced Eight Angle in quite a while. I tried today and couldn't lift myself off the ground. Houston, we've got a problem! Tomorrow is another day. We'll see if we can do it tomorrow.
April 19, 2021, 11:00am - class 1158 with Katelynn Ingersoll - 134.1 today. I will always have a soft spot for Katelynn's class because she approaches the postures from a therapeutic way rather than from a bootcamp perspective. Today's class was like "The Clare Show" as she pointed to me several times in class as an example of how to do things the correct way. "Have your hand, knee, and heel all touching, just like Clare," Katelynn said in Spine Twst. I liked how the heat was 110 rather than the crazy 120 to 140 degrees that the other teachers have been using. At home, I recorded four practice runs for my championship video submission. I can do Eight Angle with no issues today. I am in better shape than I believed, but we will see if this is good enough for the championship.